Meili-Chan

Part 3 How people respond to suffering - 12 Extreme cases page 161

"Did God desire the Holocaust? Ask the question another way: Did God desire the death of his own Son? Obviously, because of His character He could not possibly desire such atrocities. And yet both happened, and the question then moves from the unanswerable "Why?" To another question, "To what end?"

At the instant of pain, it may seem impossible to imagine that good can come from tragedy. We never know in advance exactly how suffering can be transformed into a cause for celebration. But that is what we are asked to believe. Faith means believing in advance what will only make sense in reverse.

The Chaplain of Dachau (summarised below)
Christian Reger, a survivor
Man can undergo torture if he knows Why of my life but more importantly Who of my life - He was enough to sustain me then, and is enough to sustain me still
Lost faith after a month in Dachau but wife sent Acts 4:26-29 rulers gathering against the Lord and His Annointed One... They did what Your power and will had decided beforehand should happen. Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak Your Word with great boldness
And when he was interrogated about the church, a random minister passed on the same verse.
God did not rescue me and make my suffering easier. He simply assured me that He was alive, and knew I was here.
Now as long as he has health, Reger will speak to tourist where God was during the long night at Dachau"

My notes:
The "to what end" reminded me of the dream I had before my grandfather passed away:
We (my father and I) were walking towards a botanical garden (which was apparently closed?!)  And I reminded my father to take the blood thinner aspirin for his heart. He asked back, "To what end?" And I replied, "Don't you love your children?"
- then I woke up in tears

I want to do all medically possible to keep my family alive because I just can't lose them. However, it is so selfish in a way... To what end?

I'm glad I've been to Dachau! It was different, years gone by but the horror lingers still. But I'm glad that there are delightful hope that can still arise even in the worst persecution.

It was my prayer when I started medicine... If God is willing...
1) Grant me the STRONG will and motivation to do medicine - my aunt passed away because the family decided to stop life support. Like I can't accept that! I didn't know enough back then but I wanted the knowledge to make a reasonable decision.
2) STRONG Financial support to go through medicine - my cousins' family passed away in an airplane incidents and the money has been supporting my study since.
3) The knowledge to pass medicine course.

Oh God, I know that Your will is better than my will. I'm not going to force my will but let Your will be done for it is much better.

I know I'm a sinner and I am still sinning. I'm devastated and stressed yet I received grace from You through my friends' emotional and knowledge support.

If it is according to Your will, let me pass my exams Lord. Let those who trust in You not to be put to shame! Again, in accordance with Your loving will.

❤
31/10/2017

Just want to share some stories. I felt like God are sending people to approach me after IMPACT.
An ex-Christian came to our med prayer group just that Monday after IMPACT. It's interesting that she knows a lot of Christian books (she was previously Christian group leader at high school) but she denies the faith now. I shared some resources from IMPACT and she seemed to be interested about psychiatry and Christianity.

I learnt that God qualifies the called. God prepares you and sends the opportunity in His perfect timing.

There was also my student (a Hindu) who added me on Facebook recently and continuing our discussion on spirituality!

Some friends suddenly invited me for Christian women event or even just asking about what's the non-Christian demographic in my uni WSU Campbelltown(I think mostly atheists and Muslim?) because she will prepare for mid year conference's content. But the timing though, like suddenly they are all approaching me!!

If I could kindly ask prayer for
- the lost souls and
- bravery and gentle reply for me; that would be great.

1 Peter 3:5
" But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,"

Romans 12:11
"Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord"

My father's heart condition! What is it? Is it life threatening? Oh God what do I do?
Pray!!!

Today is part of my period days. The blood stain passed through my underwear, tight pant, dress, blanket.
Then today I was late as usual, assessed first on PBL and I need to contribute more. If I'm still in my current stage, then I'll fail PBL next semester.
Thu actually stood up for my pronunciation!
Feel embarrassed as I didn't know much on PASS but glad that I learn.
Tran said sorry for her joke, she wanted to make me laugh after PBL assessment.

Overall, God is amazing. It was a long 12 hours well spent today! 😍

God, this guy (say named L) was not what I dreamt of.
Oh Jesus.. please let Your will be done.

1)  He needs to love God more than myself. A MUST.
But this guy doesn't even have time for church. But he is a christian. I'm in a cross road now..
I think he'll be fantastic in evangelism.

But why the other guy (say named D) who is devoted to Bible study and prayer meeting, play music, amazing photography, but didn't impress me as much (yet?)

So I'm fasting for my future husband, for my family's well-being and more of the world to know you Lord! Please if he is the one, he'll show changes and give me *secret item whispered to God*
And let it be that by my 22nd birthday, I have a clue of my future husband (if any).

The construction actually changed the bus stop location so I missed my bus. I then needed to wait 50 mins for the next bus, plus 6 more mins again because the bus is delayed. And I waited in the HEAT of 40C. My phone ran out of battery, so I asked the bus driver to stop at Camden hospital. But he went through it. Luckily, another passenger heard that I requested to stop at Camden hospital and pressed the stop button for me. I was late still but I'm grateful because there was that very nice passenger, the bus has AC, and learnt more about EGG application at the hospital. Thanks to God, teaching me to be grateful in the little thing. 😋