Meili-Chan

I dislike it...
Now especially because I have cancelled my working shift for choir (I have especially asked choir leader whether there is usual choir or not; she said there is).
But later they cancel choir.

Each choir , I indeed cancel my working shift. I set choir as my higher priority. I don't really mind as long as it is consistent with what they said.

But I don't want to dwell in disappointment too long! I'm so glad that my Father is consistent forever and ever. His love endures forever.

Ephesians 4:31-32
New International Version (NIV)
31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Oh Father, to God be the glory, there is always something great in His plan :3

I was being criticised by my sister in law because of my "winning priority/ don't want to lose" attitude.
I was like keep arguing and don't want to admit my fault/ inferiority.

It is great that I have someone to build me up to be a better person. Thanks again God for today! It's marvellous!

I've never been 'speechless' because it is the condition of too much shocked...
But I did today on ROCK Youth International praise and worship. The worship leader(Sherlly) prayed that we can encounter God personally and know that He is good.
Then I asked for that from God, but then I stopped because I remembered of how much God takes control of my life beautifully and yet why I am still in disbelief and ask for personal miraculous sign from Him.
The song was on and I knew the lyric but I just couldn't sing it. I cried ...

"Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am Yours
I am forever Your's
Mountains high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am Yours
I am forever Yours
[x2]"
-Love Came Down-Kari Jobe

Then the worship leader(Martin) said that real worship does not come in song only but the one who worship in spirit and truth ; even a child who was just crying and speechless actually could do the real worship that God is looking for! Wonderful voices are just extras. Then he said that God wants to speak with us personally.

That was me just before, speechless, can't sing a song that I knew the lyric fairly well!! Is this the real worship that God is looking for? Then the next song was like God speaking to me

"I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus"
- The Heart of Worship-Matt Redman

Thank you dear Father for this wonderful encounter and refreshing to pleasing You always!

John 4:24 "God is spirit, and His worshipers must worship in spirit and truth"

I have been confused with that verse, since I think that it actually should sounds like ' The Lord is my joy and my strength '

But I think I got what it could possibly means; the strength to continue in this life comes from the motivation to glorify God ( to make Him joyful) .

Oh dear!!!
This chapter is really interesting!
Really good drama! And people back then were so smart!

I hereby acclaimed that this chapter is the most unique interactive smarty conversation of man I have found so far.

This is one interesting wisdom verse :
V 14
14 Like water spilled on the ground, which cannot be recovered, so we must die. But that is not what God desires; rather, he devises ways so that a banished person does not remain banished from him.

This is the climax part :
V 18-20
18 Then the king said to the woman, “Don’t keep from me the answer to what I am going to ask you.”
“Let my lord the king speak,” the woman said.
19 The king asked, “Isn’t the hand of Joab with you in all this?”
The woman answered, “As surely as you live, my lord the king, no one can turn to the right or to the left from anything my lord the king says. Yes, it was your servant Joab who instructed me to do this and who put all these words into the mouth of your servant. 20 Your servant Joab did this to change the present situation. My lord has wisdom like that of an angel of God—he knows everything that happens in the land.”


2Samuel 16:12
It may be that the Lord will see my distress and repay me with good for the cursing I am receiving today.

V8
And if all this had been too little, I would have given you even more .
V12
You did it in secret , but I will do this thing in broad daylight before all Israel.
V13
The Lord has taken away your sin. you are not going to die

David's principle of fasting
V22
While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, 'Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.' But now that he is dead, why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.

V24
Solomon ( Jedidiah : loved by the Lord )

Verse 14-15a
I will be His father , and he will be my son. When he does wrong, I will punish him with the rod of men, with floggings inflicted by men. But My love will never be taken away from him.

David
Verse 19b ( not in Insonesian translation )
Is this your usual way of dealing with man, O Sovereign Lord?
Verse 20-21
For You know Your servant, O Sovereign Lord. For the sake of Your word and according to Your will.
Verse 27-29
So Your servant has found courage to offer You this prayer. O Sovereign Lord, you are God! Your covenant is trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant. Now be pleased to bless the house of your servant, that it may continue forever in your sight; for you, Sovereign Lord, have spoken, and with your blessing the house of your servant will be blessed forever.”

I have made the right decision that I won't regret for the rest of my life! ;)

Here it goes :
I, Mellisa, take you, Jesus, to be my prince. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love You and honor You all the days of my life.

I do like singing in the first place, but the real reason is because I can sing it with my whole heart of how great the LOVE really is!!!

Real singer sings with their heart. It may looks heartily on the outside , but what about in the inside? Do you fully agree with the lyrics?

When I was young I thought church songs are hyperbole. But it's not! I really need Jesus every SECOND !
Now,I can sing it deep down with my full understanding of heart, mind, and might <3

"My heart is steadfast, O God; I will sing and make music with all my soul."
Psalms 108:1

I should admit being anonymous on the internet makes me feel more comfortable. (However, I'm not really on this side)
What's the reason behind the urge of anonymity ?
Mainly is because you don't have to be responsible to what you said or do!

I keep my attention to what I post ( especially on fb) because people judge me through my posts and some of them have reported to my parents. Thanks God that its a great report of course *wink

I am a responsible person! So I'm using my real identity mostly on the net. ( not on every site for security reason )
Blog is a much more convenient way for me to post since it is not that crowded compared to fb. So I can post my feeling but I am responsible for my posts too :3

It's a great small lesson to learn responsibility.
People may argue with you, judge you, and all other risks

"But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken."
Matthew 12:36

1 Samuel 30:4
So David and his men wept aloud until they had no strength left to weep.
V6
David was greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him; each one was bitter in spirit because of his sons and daughters. But David found strength in The Lord his God
V8
David inquire The Lord
V23-24
No, my brothers, you must not do that with what the Lord has given us. He has protected us and handed over to us the forces that came against us. Who will listen to what you say? The share of the man who stayed with the supplies is to be the same as that of him who went down to the battle. All will share alike.

I ate a lot in Indonesia until I got bored ! Yay :3
Lists:
Fish
Salty egg
Chicken
Egg scrambled
Ice kelapa muda, tutty frutty, Indah sari
Rawon
Soto
Gule
Satay
Martabak manis
And so on

Deuteronomy 28:63
Just as it pleased The Lord to make you prosper and increase in number, so it will please Him to ruin and destroy you.
Deuteronomy 29:11-15
You are standing here for covenant
V 26
Gods he had not given them
V 29
The secret things belong to The Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law.

Deuteronomy 30
V6
The Lord your God will circumcise your hearts and the hearts of your descendants, so that you may love Him with all your heart and with all your soul, and live.
V11
Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach
V14
No, the word is very near you ; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it.
V19
This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.
20
And that you may love The Lord your God , listen to His voice , and hold fast to Him. For The Lord is your life, and He will give you many years in the land He swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob
31:16
And The Lord said to Moses: " You are going to rest with your fathers, and these people will soon prostitute themselves.
32:5
No longer children
V9 for The Lord 's portion is his people, Jacob his allotted inheritances
V10 apple of His eye
V11 eagle catch its young
V27 I dreaded the taunt of the enemy (v30: unless their rock has sold them)
V39 see now that I myself am He! There is no god besides me. I put to death and I bring to life, I have wounded and I will heal, and no one can deliver out of my hand.