Meili-Chan

Unbelievable! I've just realised it!

This is the story:

My singing is not perfect but I've been investing my life on it since I was kindergarten. I've been in church choir, taking courses, even till in Sydney. I've received constructive appraisal from my family, my teacher, my choir. No way that I'm so bad at it! 

This is the second time someone reject my singing (completely). I don't mind if its partially (eg. you have talent but you can improve on this or that). But this one...

It hurts... 

My first response: cry!!!

My second response: I want to fight back, eg. who are you to judge me? Is your singing ability way all so good that you can say that to me?

After some thought, I'm questioning why I'm so sensitive on this matter.  

I am the one who decide my response, of course I should reflect and appreciate other's feedback but I shouldn't be overly depressed by it. We must be wise to decide which word we should hear or not for our improvement. The fact is their words are not proven to be true yet, why it hurts so much personally ???

Because it was my pride ! My self! Me. Rejecting that makes me feel rejected.

And I've realised it now. How sad! 

God, I'm sorry that I took pride too much on all the efforts I did to improve the talent You gave. The glory is Yours, the giver, not mine. Let me be humble. Thanks for pointing this sin out :)

Xoxo Papa! <3