Meili-Chan

I'm writing these to remember that God knows what He's doing. It's a reminder that after all, I'm citizen of heaven and this painful world is not my home!

- my grandfather 15/11 17.30WIB pneumonia
- my sister in law's miscarriage approx 16/12
- mother in law of my uncle 22/12 heart attack
- church's relative's daughter (she's 26!) 26/12 cancer
- "truth is you know what tomorrow holds" song - then I lost my fav job notetaker the next day 8/1
- cousin of my grandfather 20/1 low BP
- mom's MRI showing brain tumour? 20/1
- my uncle 7/2 stroke

I've wanted to post something cheerful on my FB. But each time Christmas, new year wasn't a very happy one.. well...

I'm glad now I have recovered from my dry retching (3 weeks), but significantly lower appetite. I think that not due to psychological!! (Since I'm still sad)

I thought saying "I'm at the bottom and it can't get worse, it will only go up from here" was an encouragement. But not really! I can still go down and I dislike comforting lie. My real comfort is through Jesus in Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away"

"This is what the Lord says: “When seventy years are completed for Babylon, I will come to you and fulfill my good promise to bring you back to this place.¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ¹⁴ I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”"

This is so overwhelming. I did not expect that my favourite verse actually comes from such a desperate place (exile); but therefore we know that God actually fulfill his promise despite the shadow of death and suffering.